Monday, October 28, 2013


As most of us know from experience, if we concentrate too intensively on a tough problem, we can get stuck in a mental rut. Our thinking narrows, and we struggle vainly to come up with new ideas. But if we let the problem sit unattended for a time—if we “sleep on it”—we often return to it with a fresh perspective and a burst of creativity. Research by Ap Dijksterhuis, a Dutch psychologist who heads the Unconscious Lab at Radboud University in Nijmegen, indicates that such breaks in our attention give our unconscious mind time to grapple with a problem, bringing to bear information and cognitive processes unavailable to conscious deliberation. But Dijksterhuis’s work also shows that our unconscious thought processes don’t engage with a problem until we’ve clearly and consciously defined the problem. If we don’t have a particular intellectual goal in mind, Dijksterhuis writes “unconscious though does not occur. (Carr, The Shallows

Sunday, October 20, 2013

안아줘요
Hug me
이런 말을 누구한테 하고 싶은 밤
The kind of night I want to ask someone for this favor


Tonight I'm Scared of the Dark

Saturday, October 19, 2013

성형하고 싶은 생각 밖에 안나
내 코랑, 종아리랑, 이마 심는거랑, 눈이랑, 턱이랑, 가슴이랑.

머리도 다시 길르고,
긴 검은 쌩머리
러블리하게, 여성스러웠을 그떼로 다시 돌아가고 싶어

그생각밖에 안나
내 머리라도
다시

난 왜 이렇게 된거지

나 진짜 왜이러지
존나 똘아이 되버린것같아
시발 폭발하기 바로 직전임
미칠것같아

I feel...so...ugly...
I miss my long hair...
God fucking dammit I should have never cut my hair again
It look one year for it to grow that long...I dealt with it for one fucking year...and I shouldve just waited a bit longer...
Ughh....
Honestly I'm so fucking tempted to take two years off of school to just work and get away from everyone I know at this school and to get away from my past
And when I return everyone I know would have graduated.

Why am I so unhappy?
I should be grateful
But
사람이란...자기한테 좋이 안은 길을 선택한다는...

이제 욕심이 하나도 없다
욕심이 없어졌어
계속
실패하고 또 하고 그러니까
일곱번 넘어져서 여덟번제엔 일어서는게 아니라
그냥
그냥 누워있을래

포항이라서 그런건가?
탓하는거 옳지않은건 알겠어
하지만
정말
기대되는게 없고
인생에데에서 관심이 하나도 없다
학교를 졸업하던 말던
흥미가 없어
흥미가 있었으면 좋겠는것도 아니야 이젠
흥미가 있었는데
너무 쉽게 포기 해서 그런건가봐

너무 쉽게 포기해
그러지 말걸
이러지 말걸
욕심이 없어
어떻하지
그냥 진짜
뭐가 될란지
절대로 열심히 하고 싶은 마음이 없어
다 살아 져버렸어
대충대충하고
대충대충 살고
대충대충 존제하는 인간은 쓸모가 없으니
그냥 일찍 죽어버리기나 했으면 하다









Friday, October 18, 2013

iphone 5s gold



올. 완전 간지 나는데. 새로운 금색 iPhone 5S가 탐나네. 

On another note-
The friends that share the same interests in fashion, lifestyle, and culture as I seem to run few and far between, and the fact that my uni is in the countryside doesn't help either.
It is at times like this that I am filled with an overpowering desire to speak the same languages as my few fellow culture and fashion obsessed friends.
The specific phrases and intonations that each language offers is so unique to its own. 
Of course Korean is only my second language as English is my native tongue but there are so many phrases and expressions that cannot be imitated in other languages that I desperately want to express to my friends of different tongues. 
It brings a sense of closeness to obsess over something in a language only my friend and I can understand. 





Wednesday, October 16, 2013

하아..
오늘은 아주 좃같은 하루였다...
처음붙어 끝까지,
아침부터 집가러 버스탈데까지

버스 기사 아저씨는 왜그렇게 승질이 개 더러운거야?
내 인생이의 앞길이 니 땅바닥처럼 더러운 인생보다 낳다고 나한테 화풀이 하지말라고 미친놈아, 아 시발