i can tell myself time and again "i love myself, i cherish myself, i forgive myself"

but

in the end

its not true

i can try to. trick myself.

in the end
what's real is real.

i dont love myself
i dont cherish myself
i will never forgive myself

its not

back

to ground zero

its always been.
zero.

emma stone

wow she looks just stunning in her vogue cover debut.