Thursday, March 31, 2011

I love my friends Josh and Andy. I could never live without them.

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Tuesday, March 29, 2011


Feeling higher lately. For the past four days, more specifically. This boy. I mean, of course it's a boy. How cliche, yeah? I don't know. I'm falling too head over heels in like for him. How we clicked so fast puzzles yet amuses yet warms me. Smitten. Not good. Nonono not good... I mean, wonderful, yet unhealthy. His voice. His humor. Charm. Maturity. Depth. Complexity. I can't help but keep replaying the last time we sat in the car at night, guitar from the stereo, smoke... his head back, eyes closed, pensive, unmoving. The way he just let the cigarette burn for what seemed like ages... and...

Bury my head in my pillow out of happiness.

Monday, March 14, 2011

Thursday, March 10, 2011


Tucked in, head plush on top of my pillow, and ready to fall asleep, I murmured the last few thoughts in my head from the rest of the day and thanked God for the blessings he's bestowed on my life, for reminding me that loved ones, caring ones, surround me everywhere, and I couldn't resist but to grab for my devotions book which had been thrown on top of my bookshelf, untouched and collecting dust for who knows how many months, before calling it a night. Opening the devotional to the lone post-it stuck near the end, the date read December 7th-- three grueling months I had struggled, stubbornly ignoring His love and guidance which had lied so close at hand. But once again I open myself to Him, and once again I feel, finally, nurtured.

Thursday, March 3, 2011